I've been in touch alot lately with Ray (my friend) and like I've described before, he is a strong believer in Jesus and all that stuff. We were talking and I asked why he didn't try out for the Sac Kings. (as he was describing doing well against someone who tried out but didn't make the squad) He is a big time believer of observing the Sabbath and reiterated it as his reason for not trying out. (he'd have to play for the Sabbath) I said, "well, why don't you just try out to see if you would make it and you could maybe just break the Sabbath just for a bit of time and do what you love. (he really likes playing basketball) He said, "Tino, you either are or your not" (making reference to a sermon he told me about earlier about some verse in 2 cortinthians) I sat in silence to reflect on that point.

I think it is sound advice for a Christian. You either live your life to glorify God or indulge yourself. Much of the trouble Christians come up against is trying to do a bit of both. I think many people know this intuitively (like much of the advice out there) but don't know it emotionally. Smart is as smart does. At the end, its a matter of who you love more.

For an atheist such as myself (this may surprise you if this is your first time visiting, with the wallpaper and all) I think I have come to find that simply doing the opposite of the bible is fraught will peril. (who wants to end up as a coveting murdering idolater rapist?) Oddly, I find I must adopt some of the biblical principals to my life. (somewhere out there, someone finds that obvious) Yet, following such principals without a mandate is difficult. (If I feel like coveting and there is no immediate punishment or result, why not?)

Right now, I only know what I'm not. There is no clear definition of who I am as it is quite contradictory, even relative to other people. (I'm actually pretty sure of that) I am more not a christian than an atheist per se. (definately not agnostic though) At the end, I know I must decide....or do I? If there really is nothing, whatever I do really don't matter. That thought is disturbing though possibly true. Perhaps ambivalence is a label that could possibly fit if you wanted to pin me down at this current slice of my life. Thus, if that saying in my title is true, then I am currently false! And, maybe, that is just fine. *smirk*

I see one of my notify friends is gone. *frown* What happened? Oh wait, you don't even know (or care) that I'm writing. (LOL) I've learned that for the most part, people will come and go. Those more like you will stay while those less like you will go. I wonder if anyone is actually not preaching to the choir (so to speak) I think it does happen, but not for very long. People either convert or walk out. (or are forced out via righteous indignation over a contradictory idea) Lord knows I won't be listening to richardsworld sermon anytime soon. Anyhow, that is all.