After writing my previous entry, I chatted with jayne. She was telling me to be more positive and stuff. One thing I realized is that my faithfullness is at a all time low. *hope I can fix this* I mean, gee, I should be following God doing what he sees fit. Instead, all I have been doing is nagging. Well, how did it get this low, I think I can answer that. It all started when my lil bro and sis got token away. Before that, I was well on my way to studing to be a pastor. *an aspiration of mines a while back* After finding the lil bro and sis gone, it kinda lower my faith. *stupid alcholic mom entry has details of when they were taken* Since that day, my faith has hit the ground, perhaps the lowest since I was 12. *at 12, I used to steal, do bad stuff* Well, i'm gonna try to bring my faith up. I'm gonna pray more. Read the bible more. Be more postitive. Just generally try harder. Wish me luck.