What a rollercoaster of a week. Actually, it was more down than up, but it wasn't anything too bad. The most stressful part were the midterms I had. I had taken Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday off of work so that I could study for my Psych research methods class and my developmental psychology class. *I also had to "help" Michelle with a 2 page paper. I had felt so unconfident on Tuesday that I really didn't get any real studying in. Instead, I questioned whether I had any ability to understand the complex information. I mean, I wasn't sure of what formula to apply in what situation. Also, had an article I had to read for the developmental psychology class that day. I got more studying done on Wednesday. That day was the stat test. I barely finished understanding before the test.

The test itself was moderately hard. I think I'll get a high B. Anything less would be a big disappointment. The developmental psych test was on Thursday and it had more information to know. That day, I came up with Michelle. *she had a cognitive psychology test* I had to study around 125 pages of textbook, 40 pages of another book and the lecture material. *from around 10-2. I also barely got that done. I think I did adequate. Though I felt the class asked more biology questions then were emphasized in class.

Besides all that, I had been relatively stressed. I had a few intense arguments with Michelle. I am tempted to attribute atleast one of them to a severe hormonal mood swing. Though ofcourse, all disputes usually are caused by both parties involved.

During the bus rides to and from college, I have been relatively neurotic. I have lots of putdowns for myself. I usually try to challenge those assumptions as to try not to let myself go to far the deep end. Though I'll admit that I've actually had a few fleeting moments of wanting to harm myself. I dunno where those are coming from. I feel more aggressive toward myself. I think its the testostorone I'm taking. I have to talk to my endocrinologist about it. I also ofcourse, have more sexual thoughts. Annoyingly so. Also, you could blame the cortisol I have to take. *known as the stress hormone* Yay for me. Do I want more stress? No, but it is necessary I'm told in case I get seriously hurt. *I need to buy a bracelet to the ambulances that I need cortisol* So yeah......

Hmmm... I wanted to write all philosophical on here but the mood isn't striking me right now.

Hey, where are all of you. Only kaliko has been updating lately. Wassup people? You guys ok? Hope so. Take care.