Lately, I've been weighing the question as to which way I should go with my life. *well more so than usual* The closer I've come to choosing one way, the more further I become from a decision. It's like, is my life simply here to be submitted to GOD? Is this exsistance just a bunch of randomness that I should just learn to adapt to the society in which I've been placed in? Is me believing in GOD a result of GOD placing this knowledge in me or is this just a cultural thing?
These questions I cannot answer. I've tried to ask others for the answers and they are biased. One side says God and Jesus are the ONLY WAY. The other side says that I should just live to be happy with my situations. Each side has convincing arguments. Both want to win me over. Either I'm for or against. There is no inbetween.
Evidence is so strong too. I mean, for one, someone had to create this life system. It's too complex to be random. Also, history shows that Jesus did indeed live.
The flip side to all that is the facts that underlie many scientific laws and theories. Many of the facts don't exactly help us christians. And believe or not, evolution does occur. Don't believe this diarist? Explain to me how dieases adapt to the immune system. WHile mass evolution is more questionable, the little things in science add up.
Also, on a different level, this just could be cultural. The European belief that spread with its colonization of other countries. Which brings me this question: Did God use colonization to spread his word? Was he indeed on the Europeans side when they wiped out the Native Americans and other races? Is GOD really blessing America because we are the main tool to get others to believe in him? When those Iraqis come before the throne, will they be thrown to the fire because they didn't grow up with the beliefs that I had the privledge to have around me?
This stuff is confusing to me. I could write for about 5 hours about the little questions and thoughts swirling in me. I wish they'd go away. I wish that I was 100% one or the other. That way I'd feel confident in what I do in my life.
That is all. GOnna write about my day on another entry date right now. ~END~
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And yes, everyone is trying to win you over. The one thing I have not forgotten since I became a believer in God is, since He is there, so is the devil. It's a war out there, and each side wants as many on their side as they can get. The difference between the two, the stark difference is, God wants you to chose freely - the devil wants you to chose by any means, mostly lies.
Either way, it's your choice. All the more reason to make sure it is one you can live with.
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