He says he's going to "unite" the country. I doubt it, but if plans on doing so, he's going to compromise. He could have his war in Iraq and forbid gays to marry, but don't take away abortion or more social programs. I dunno, the country is turning conservative. After reading various newspapers, I believe it was actually the countries attempt to be more moral. My opinion is that its linked to 9/11. People became more anxious that day. That makes some apathetic christians attend church and change thier beliefs. They're afraid and looking to turn to something. And you know, christians are always there to embrace and change them. Though I hope this doesn't mean an increase in college tuition.

Anyways, that's enough politics for a year. I promise, I'll try to stay away from it. Just needed to express it somewhere. As for my life, I find my self emotionally distant from Michelle. That leaves me confused as to where to turn for intamacy. Btw, when I say intamacy, I mean emotional closeness, not anything physical. In the past, I'd turn online and that'd work. Though now my friends don't really show up online much except Chrissy. So she's nice, though I have to have constraint because I have a tendancy to grow closer to people I talk to and since she's a girl, wouldn't want to interfer with me while I'm still with Michelle. So that is that. Kinda weird writing that knowing Michelle or Chrissy may misinterpret that. Though my intention is to say that I'm emotionally alone and have no where to turn. But, some lovely christians would say to turn to GOD. I dunno. I want to. It does sound great. Just in actuality, I have trouble really relying on the big man.

So anyways, was interesting reading your guy's comments. Haven't had that many in years. I think it's because I been more dedicated to reading my friends' diaries and trying to stay in touch. Except for my friend Danielle, who I know in real life. Her diary is boring. She just is vague and is only about her guy in Kuwait. Nice person, don't get me wrong, but I just not my type of diary. Anyways, In the past I was selfish and only writing what I thought and not visiting my other friends' diaries. So I'm happy about that.

Here I am at the college, bored almost to death. Not quite, I'm still alive. Can't chat, got caught last night when I was chatting. Though I'm thinking of giving it a shot. I do enjoy chatting. Plus, even got to talk to Alex, which was interesting. He ended up having to go to the hospital because his feet were sweeling due to some pills. Plus, he got a job through disability. That lucky bastard. I wish I could sit on my butt and get placed in a job. A job in which he'll get money on top of disability and spend it on fun stuff. Meanwhile, I'm struggling to survive here. Though while reading what I just wrote, makes me sound meaner than I am. I wish him the best, just I wish I had it easier. I guess what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

Forgot to address LC's question. She asked how the tumor was going. Well...this will sound odd to you. I dunno. I have avoided going to the doctors and taking my pills. Too many side effects. And I seem ok for now. I mean, it sounds dumb and upsets Michelle, but I hate dealing with having a tumor and stuff. Makes me depressed. I'm ok right now and incredibly, have been for awhile. So I'm just hoping it its ok. I mean, they removed it last time leaving only a tiny bit. It can't be that big cuz I hardly get headaches and I'm not throwing up or anything. So, I just been ignoring it. Even though I shouldn't ignore it. I'm weird like that. Just thinking of it brings down my mood so I'm going to stop disscussing it right now. Thinking about it, Michelle is probaly going to tell me to go to the docs after reading this. I'll see. I'm partially covered by the county as long as I make under $600 a month. That was one hell of a process, but that's a past entry, so I won't go there. Well, that's all for now folks, later