I'm also waiting on the EDD to call me. They're suppose to give me some comfy government job where I'd make a nice amout of money. Also waiting for the winner of American Idol. *who isn't* Yeah, superfical pop music, but somehow they have drawn me in; like a fish blindly swimming towards bait on a hook. I'm rooting for Bo Bice. They'll be interesting to watch.

Lastly, I'm waiting on the summer semester. I will be taking Social Problems and Human Sexuality. I'm very familiar with these two subjects and enjoy the concepts. I hear that your suppose to discuss your sexual history in there. I dunno about that. I don't need to tell some professor about the weird shit I'm into. Plus, I also think you discuss it in class. I don't think so. I'm not that comfortable with that obviously. Its not like I'm gonna learn about why I'm like that. I already know why. Basically its just a combination of social factors and probaly a lil biological reasons. Some where near my core is a huge desire to be wanted/desired. That explains alot of my behavior in general.

In other news, I also found out at that clinic that I lost some weight. I'm happy about that, as I am semi-weight conscious. The fact that I know that society controls this thought process doesn't help though. My logic knows much, though you could say my emotions run the place. However, I try not to let it be in too much control or I start to be overly emotional. There's nothing worse to me than a person that is all emotions. There's just no talking to them, for they have no logic. All they care about is themselves and have no forethought. So yeah, like I was saying, I'm glad I lost some weight. I want to continue so I don't have to feel embarrassed when taking off my shirt during summer. Though going through this has given me empathy. I feel bad for people who are big and keep thier shirts on because they feel bad.

Besides all that, I wonder where my DD friends are. Very lil updating lately. I guess you guys are busy. I understand, I have been too. Well, I GTG, take care