Ugh, there's nothing to do. I'm bored and a little down. Feel like talking to someone but no one is available online. Nowadays, i have llike 2 people light up now. Both of which i haven't chatted in who knows when. What would I talk about? I dunno, depends on the person I guess. Some people you talk to and you can just bounce right off of them and have a really smooth convo about whatever. Others, you can go through 5 or 6 different topics and still find replies ending in yes, uh huh, and that's cool. I suppose everyone is in different places in thier lives. I mean, some people are just trying to figure things out while others know exactly who they are and what life is about. I guess the stage I'm in is a questioning stage. I like to ask why? I'm perpetually on the fence about whatever. Even with Michelle, she'll be like, what do you want to eat. I'll be like, I dunno. I'll be like, soup sounds nice, but so does chicken. "Well which one do you want" I dunno, whatever. Maybe that's irritating.

It's like, if you're a christian and I'm questioning your faith, then that is kinda've anti-you. Why would you want to go through that?

That is the faith of the disagreeable person. It says so in psychology. They make less friends then agreeable people. People like themselves and thier own beliefs. Sometimes, I think people who are different from me like me cuz I remind them of an old them. Thus, still liking themselves. HEHEHE. I find it funny cuz in the end, the search is just for a slightly different us. Different on the small stuff, alike in the big stuff. Right now, I'm imagining saying to myself in the mirror, you're what I've been looking for and smiling.

SOme philosopher *Satre?* once said that people fall in love with people who treat them like the way they want to be percieved. So, if you desire to be popular and someone treats you *and viws you* like you are popular, you will like them. In my case, I'm thinking I like to be viewed as cute and smart. Thus, I will like Michelle as far as she views and treats me as such. *ever want to get to me, call me an ugly idiot*

Why did i just say that? I dunno, just popped in my head. Hmm.. Michelle is sleeping next to me, I wonder if I should bother her? Heheh. O, she says she hates me typing so loud. :( for her.