I ended up chatting with innereye. She took me to a chat room and I learned alot about her through this "sexual" survey this guy was asking her. She's cool people and hope she can overcome the crazy crap going on in her life. I also ended up chatting to Jen for a lil. That ended when Michelle said "YOUR TYPING TOO LOUD!" She was obviously stressed. I got off and eventually slept.
Today I wake up after maybe 4 hours of sleep and I'm tired. I feel moody again. I'll try to keep that to myself. Its the gift NOT worth giving.
Right now was crusing the web and reading about the new XBox and playstation. They sound pretty cool. Other than that, nothing much to look forward to. Sometimes I feel as though I'm just floating around here waiting for something special to happen. I guess games will have to do. Atleast there I'm a hero, I'm saving the world and even making friends who will die for me. Ha, sad how us humans have to turn to an illusion for what we really desire in real life. Its either that or sex. Sex has a way of letting us live in a reality that isn't quite real. Especially when you start doing things like role-playing. Still, afterwards I'm reminded of the harsh reality that is everyday life. Yet, could be harsher. I could be working in a sweat shop or living in Africa. In fact, they'd think I'm an ungrateful spoiled brat. I mean, look at me, got a computer, TV, clean running water, food aplenty and much much more than them. Though that's not to say they have nothing. Usually they have social bonds much closer than those in this superfical society. I mean, somehow I think its cool that you meet people that will go out there and really die for you and that you feel so close to them that you'd do the same. Over there, there isn't much food, but they share more than us. Fuck, I can't even give someone a dollar without second guessing sometimes. We're also taught to be obsessed with the image of our bodies. That is so fucken annoying. Why do I have to fit some ideal? So its bad there, but isn't that great here either. The grass is greener here, but that's because we use cow manure. *which stinks*
The one thing I am grateful though is the computer. Where WOULD I be without it. Would've never met Michelle. Never knew that people like me are out there. *logically yes, but not visually* Its given me the ability to listen to any song at any time and play video games with people around the world. So yeah, that's good. Well I better go, I just have this feeling that my classmate, who is very nosey and odd, will come and see me typing this. *she right near me* Her name is Nicole. Michelle knows her. Well, I gtg.
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Ah well, get there one day :)
I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen as well: to get out of school. But I'm sure that after I get a job and get settled I'll end up waiting for something else.
That's what keeps up ticking though, the notion that tomorrow will be a better day and that's just fine with me.
BTW, those social ties in Africa can also be a great burdon. A while ago I worked with a guy from Africa (forgot the country) and he told me he had to proivde for 32 people in his hometown. That's a lot of love, but also a lot of responsibility. Needless to say he never has any money left for himself, but then again he owns something so much bigger than money, a beautiful character.
Niels
In a sense I agree with them. Too many years as a Catholic watching people kneel in front of it but not really think about what it means was one of the reasons I left.
As for the business approach, I don't really object. Paul did it in his time, when he went to Rome. He talked to them they way the discussed things among themselves. Any more, I'm not against untraditional ways of getting the gospel out. It had better be true to the gospel, but anything that reaches out and reaches in is a good thing. And they had better live the gospel.
And remember, in his time Jesus was a radical. Smetimes change is a good thing.
>^..^<