Well, today I finally got my classes for this upcoming semester. *its about time, semester starts Monday* I'm kinda excited. A lil nervous too. Lots of good emotions about that. I'm glad I'm talented enough to attend college. Actually, I still got to get some stuff cleared through finacial aid. Other than that, i'm ready. Ray on the other hand doesn't seem as prepared. He went with me. He seems lackluster about the start of the semester. He says he may take a semester off to work full time. Said he's tired of college and feels like he's gonna end up just like his mom. *his mom is a college dropout who makes average pay, good to me, but average relative to other Americans* Anyways, was nice having him go with me. I feel liked we bonded slightly.

After that, I went home and was about to sleep when I got invited to a fellowship dinner. WHen I heard steak was the main course, I was definately ready to go. HEHEHEHE Before I got off the phone, I got Alberto to agree to put this old hard drive I had laying around as my second hard drive.

Eventually Alberto picks me up and I get there. Its still pretty early and we talk and do chapter summary. After that, He puts in the second hard drive. Free of charge too! Anyways, we do end up eating. The steak is DELICIOUS! WOW! Was cool time though I think I came off as finiky because I didn't want the salad and chives. After that, we go to the church for chapter summary.

On the way there, Alan is driving and asks why I haven't been attending. I tell him straight up because I usually have funner things to do and its boring. Also if I had friends in the church I'd be alot more likely to come. That is when he kind jumps down my throat. Alan was like, " Your suppose to come to church because you want to meet God, if you find someone with common interests, that's good, but if not, it don't matter" I say, "While that may be true, the fact remains, if my friends came here, I'd be here more." So then he is like, "why do you think you don't have friends here" I tell him, " I believe its because we don't share common interests and no one would turn to me. How Am I expected to pour my heart to a brother when he won't do same with me because I'm younger" So Alan uses the following analogy, " Would you ask a 10 year old how to drive" I tell him that friends talking to each other is different that advice from a 10 year old" After that, I go on to tell him how much I don't like his analogy and how I don't like christians for thier inability to relate on a real one on one basis. He tells me some other crap but by then he's toned out. He's talking but I don't hear him. Eventually, service starts, I sit away from him.

At the end, another person had heard what he was saying and kinda echoed what ALan said. Though I liked his tone better. He was like, "Tino, you forget, we do all have things in common, were all sinners, all need christ and all want to be loved." After that, I felt ok. I walked around and forced a few conversations and then got ready to leave. That is when I got invited to this seminar at CSU Fullerton. I may go. From aug 30 to Sept 2. Though I do have classes. I think I can find a way to make it all happen. THough the only reason I'd go is because its proxmity to one of my close chat friends. I know, not right motivation but its the truth. I'll talk to her and see what happens.

In other news, talked to Jeff, me and him are getting a lil close again, though i'm trying to keep my emotional distance. He's betrayed me already so that's that. In the past, forgiven, but still. Though its crazy how he keeps trying to really know me, I believe he really wants to help though I don't think he's capable. Not sure why he continues with it. Anyways, I'm bored and thanks kaliko for your comment. When you put down that comment about prayer, made me realize and made me have some faith. ok, that is all. ~END~