Wake up today after much sleep. As I do, I go straight on computer. Play my favorite game, the sims. Before I know it, ALberto is at my door. I HAD CHURCH!!! So I get dressed really fast and go with him. He gives some good advice and we arrive there.

As I'm there, I sit at a seat. And what is this, alberto goes and sits elsewhere. So there I am, by myself. Eventually others file in. I have a few people say hi, singing starts. NO hymnals for anyone, just straight singing from memory. I just stand there. Eventually study begins. *not sermon, that is in morning, i didn't attend that* So As I'm there, I feel REALLY messed up, then I realize. I DIDN"T TAKE MY PILLS!!! I make through thing ok though. I go and make some conversation with Rebecca about this veils they all the women wore during the service. I go with this other guy, alberto had to leave and do something. So I end up leaving with some guy. I make it home.

As I get home, Jeff calls. He got in trouble for what he downloaded on Friday. He had got some pics he wasn't suppose to. Grrr, I feel bad, I told him how to use WInMx to get them. Though it was after he insisted. He aplologized to me and to his mom while on phone. LIke 5 times! I feel bad for him. Oh yeah, he did call before that, I had called him on answering machine to see if Monday was day off. IS next Monday. When he returned my call, he asked about big appointment tomorrow.

Oh yes, that appointment. To see if I need surgery. *pretty sure I do* I know I"m not taking radiation. Stronger pills is not really an option, blood pressure is already too low, and the symptoms I've got are getting pretty bad. Besides, I just want this tumor out right now. I'm scared, but something I have to face. Well, wish me luck. *oh wait, I don't believe in luck* Um, wish me something good. k. Alright, that is all.