I just read my entry above again. *yes I re-read sometimes* Wow, i'm so composed. In reality, I think I'm tripping to hard. It's all coming to me. All at once. The bills, the lil bro and sis, my tumor, my love life, work, college, everything. This all sucks. Even my relationship with God. I mean, if I was close to him, I wouldn't even be worring about this. I'd know it was in his hands. I tell myself that, But it's not clicking. Wow, I read some other old entries and I can't believe all this crap I've been dealing with. ANd my ability to handle it. How the heck? Hmmm. *got to hang on* Star, thanks for the hug. :)

*Trying to figure it all out* If I could work for DMV then I could pay bills. Hopefully this tumor won't ruin my status there. My tumor, the pills should have that. The lil bro and sis, mom should handle them from now on. THey'll live. Besides, they know I can't do stuff I want to because of my illness. College, maybe next year. As for GOD, I got to do some serious praying. Now the love life thing, I just got to let that go for now. No one is gonna want to date someone with illnesses. or my problems. Everything else, that's on GOD. THERE, that should be it. *There, I knew I could figue it out* *feels better* A lil.