It's been awhile and alot has changed. Well, let me start with Jeff. *that lil traitor* Things have not improved at all. I haven't really talked to him at all. He missed Monday and Tuesday. Today I left campus early. He still wants forgiveness, and I'm willing to say I forgive you, but the friendship has changed. He has scared me and I dunno if I even feel the same anymore concerning him. *sigh* Was great when it was.

As for what I've been doing these last couple days, let me start with yesterday. That was spent with mainly Eliza, April, and DOanld. Wow, was crazy. I joined Eliza and April in Psych 44 *love and intamacy* and it was the BEST CLASS I've ever been in. I want to write a later entry just concerning what I learned. Anyways, let me write about what else happened.

I helped Donald alot. He was REALLY down. He cryed and was sad about events in his life. Good thing he came with us after that psych class and went to Arby's. That really cheered up his day. Cheered my day up as well. Not only was I helping him in his time of need, but I got to grab a $20 bill with my teeth from within Eliza's bra. *yup, we were being bad* I guess cause I knew what I could do with her and just did. NOt the only thing I did. Later on the bus, I was messing with the back of her neck and she REALLY liked it. *was pay back for messing with my neck in class* And the craziest thing is yet to be typed. After we had picked up Ayumi and Romero, we went to the OLD part of town. THere, me and Eliza decided to roll down the grass together. *holding on to each other* Felt good doing it, though I did realize it was just for fun and that is what kind of person she is. The day went good except for the fact that Donald had a hard time enjoying his time.

At around 10, Donald, Romero, Ayumi, and April went home. I stayed with Eliza. By then we were in downtown. We talked. Was mainly about why I was Jeff's friend and why I brought Donald along. *she didn't like the fact that he was depressed* Anyways, we come to understandings and we go to her place.

THere, there is a blackout. I call home after that. My mom is actually worried. Especially my lil sis. *was like 11:30PM* We talked and I found out Jeff had called. *he probaly was worried too* Anyways, we lay and talk. She is smart. She can hold intelligent conversations. I think her problem is that she knows what she SHOULD do, but decides to do what is the funiest instead. After that we sleep.

Wake up, go to the college and I take my class for today. I see Donald after and he is HAPPY! He thanked me so many times. I felt happy that I could do that for him. *wasn't just the fact I invited him but I was talking to him alot when he'd isolate himself from the group* Me and Eliza then decide to go have breakfast. We eat at Denny's. Was cool until her homeboy Dennis showed up. *we had seen him on the bus* She changed. She showed her more "ghetto" personality. ANyways, we handle some stuff at the dmv and kill alot of time before I go home.

HEre at home Jeff calls. He is waiting for me on campus. I tell him that I'm not really in the mood to talk to him anymore. He tells me that I'm acting immature and I need to let go and etc. I almost want to just let it slide but my mind won't let me. He hurt me deeply and like HONEY said, our friendship won't be the same. That being the case makes me feel like completly just forgetting jeff as a friend. It hurts BADLY but is something I have to do. So much so I feel like calling him and pretending things were like they were before all this happened. :'(

Well, here I am, happy yet not. Happy I'm getting some attention from someone of the opposite gender. Even though it being from someone out for some fun. *wish it was from someone looking for love* She's not. And even if she is, its not from me. She likes THUGS. *gangster looking fools* I'm just her friend. I dunno. I guess we both just use each other for the fun physical stuff. *no not sex, I have my limits and values* As for the other side of me. I feel sad that I'm losing such a caring person that helped me in my time of great need. Also sad that my religous bond is fading again. :( Anyways, that is all, thanks for all your comments. ~END~