Arguing about this and that

How do I describe my week off from DD??? I'd saying it involved alot of arguing with Michelle. She has really been at me for various things from getting a better paying job to not wanting to clean the room. And just for the record, she gets things in return for what she does. That is probaly at the heart of what our arguments have been about. She is exchange orientated, she wants this for that. I do things out of love. I don't try to get anything out of it. She thinks the reason she does this is because she sees how her mom didn't get anything out of her relationship with her dad. So thus, she is trying to protect herself. Still, I'm not her dad. She knows I don't take advantage of her. Besides, even on the things she offers in exchange *such as cleaning the room*, I have to beg her. So that hasn't been so hot.

So finally today will worked things out. Is it a coincidence that she just had her period. You know what they say about PMS, well I seen it for myself and it wasn't pretty. We all have our flaws, even me. Definately me. I can stall when it comes to finding a full time position and blame people for things that aren't their fault. Still, her flaws have drove me nuts and sometimes I wonder how much I can take. If I didn't love her, she would've been out the picture long time ago. Logically, we should probaly be broken up. However, relationships don't always work that way. If my patience with her is a 12 inch ruler, than she has about half an inch left.

Besides all this, I've been waiting on the results from the MRI and still no response. I'm going to have to pressure them. Hopefully that turns out good.

I've been busy as heck with school this week too. Seems that the speech class has something due everytime we meet. I'm doing well in it though. I'd say I'm the number 3 speaker. The other 2 are natural speakers that flow really well and are funny and interesting. I do things technically right; being a English tutor has taught me to do that. However, I lack some humor and I don't have a great speaking voice. Plus, I squint when I talk. *weird I know* So there's that and having to help my partner "Mechelle". *not to be confused with Michelle* She is more lost than Waldo. *I loved Where's Waldo books* So she is annoying with her questions. Its like she can't even follow basic instructions. Plus, I got myself to worry about, can't be babysitting her through the class. I love helping, don't get me wrong but she isn't even trying. If she doesn't put more effort next time, she could forget my help.

Other than that, things have been typically alright. Life has a way of being not to good or not too bad. I can't complain that much, life can be worse. Though many have it even better than me. Well anyways, I'm tired. Hope you guys are doing ok. I know jen and chrissy aren't doing alright right now, so I hope you to feel better next time I hear from you.

Comments (4)

InspirationalBeings (Legacy)

I am okay just a lil frustrated right now and tired of shit- well you don't know the whole story yet but if we ever chat again you will....anywho, glad to hear you are doing good in school and everything is workin out with school...Sorry to hear about your arguments though- it must suck...You really do love Michelle you can see that every time you write- but honestly I don't know how much more fighting you can handle- there's gotta be something yous can work out to stop the fighting- if not then I don't know why you are in a relationship that is all about arguing- I was in that type before and I would never wanna be in it again cuz it only leads to your unhappiness...At any rate- I really hope everything turns out good for your MRI and all your medical stuff- I pray for you all of the time CUZ- miss ya;)

*hugs*
~Chrissy~

InspirationalBeings (Legacy)

PS-

You shouldn't have to do anything for exchange purposes- that's almost like a business transaction...and by the way I love Wheres waldo books lol- my dads boss looks like him so I call him that all of the time lol;)

*hugs*
~Chrissy~

MsAshley (Legacy)

Angel,
I know how hard it is to be with someone you love and still argue all the time. The thing is it's love in it's wierdest form. I hope you can find some mutual ground and this doing for stuff thing is way out of hand. she should be like you and do for love not for things in exchange. It's crap and she knows it. she's just making excuses to get things thinking that you'll never do for her like you would anyway.
Even I know how you are with things. you don't ask for things at all. You both need counciling and if I have to tell you every time to drag her ass there then you need to drag her ass there. You and I both know that something like that is needed. I know because I just forced my insignificant other to go and he didn't want to but I said we need it if I'm to stay with you.
Angel baby you have to do this for your own well being as well. I love you with all my heart and will continue praying for your health and wellbeing and continued perserverence in what you are trying to achieve.
Love you baby,
Ms Ashley

kaliko88 (Legacy)

That's the thing about love, Tino. It's knowing someone so well that you know most of their faults, most of their secrets, all of the good, and they know the same about you .... and you love anyway. Just because.

Sounds like someone we both know.

>^..^<

P.S. Someday, if this love continues to grow, all this little stuff won't even matter anymore.