Sometimes I feel like being a christian makes life alot more boring than it already is. I mean, I can't listen to the music I want to listen to, do the things I want to do and act the way I want to. Well I could, and do, just I end up feeling guilty. I dunno, end up feeling like, damned if I do, damned if I don't. *wonder if I making any sense*

I wish I was closer to other christians. Thing is, for me, the phrase christian friend is an oxymoron. Seems I'm unable to have christian friends. It isn't like they ain't friendly and nice, thing is, they all seem like people I'm not. I could fit in with them if I tryed but that would be hypocritical. Well, not hypocritical in the sense of being nice, but in the direction of the conversation. All seems so fluffed up. Grr, frustrated because I feel I'm not explaining my feelings right.

Well, i'm not sure what else to write and i got a friend chatting to me. That is all. ~END~