I'm worried. Ok, so I'm going through my files when I pull out one of my graphs. *what are the graphs you might be thinking* Well, they show the amount of hormones in my body. Anyway, So I start to look at em and start to realize something. I'm worse than I thought. To find out what how bad, I went to webmd.com to find out. THere, I found all that I needed. First I check what Free t4 is. Why, well, it said I had low levels. 0.80 is minimum level. mines is 0.74 What does that mean I have, well, after some looking, I found that I have hypothyroidism. *sympthoms, weakness
fatigue, cold intolerance, weight gain (unintentional), depression, joint or muscle pain thin, pale color among others. ALl of wich I have. http://my.webmd.com/content/asset/adam_disease_myxedema for more info. THen, I look at my insulin level. VERY LOW! 51. Normal is between 182-780. Later, I would find out the hydrocortisone I'm taking is making that level low. Also, I have high levels of prolactin. Check this out, Abnormal Results Mean, A prolactin-secreting tumor (most often) and causes hypothyroidism. I should be a doc. *I wonder if ya'll are following this*

Let me try to translate. My weakness is caused By hypothyroidism. I have that because of low t4. I have low insulin because of the hydrocortisone I'm taking. I got all this because of my tumor. I'm really worried now. i've been trying to downplay this, but like Honey said, this is your life. *I hate excerpts, I never translate it right* Anyways, I'm really worried. I hope I don't die or something. *getting scared* I hope I make it through this. Even my mom has noticed me decreasing in overall health. And She's drunk all the time. I can't stop thinking, WHY ME. I know, Just chance. LIke it's looping through my head. Like a broken record. That is all.