Let me catch everyone including myself on Tuesday. I stay home again and wait around to go to work. I eventually get there and *as you may have guessed* worked.

It was an annoying day with more than the average amount of rude customers. One lady for sure was trying to get me mad on purpose because she was getting a laugh out of it from her friends. Like I told Michelle, I was almost close to punching her. So rude! She talked about how I look foreign and she and her friends should look out for me because I may bomb something. I thought that was inapproiate. Then when she asked my age, I asked her to guess, and she said retarded. *that is the remark that nearly got her decked* After keeping my composure, a few customers later a lady came in and tripped me out. After I messed up on her changed, I apologized, tell her I'm tired and got her the accurate amount. She then says that I shouldn't be on the phone so late because I got school and work. I hand her the reciept and then put copy in my "media" thingy. She then is gone. Was really weird.

Speaking of weird and just plain bizarre, when I went outside to get a ride home, lo and behold, Lorenzo was driving the car with my mom in the passenger seat. I double looked and sure enough it was him. My mom says hi to me as I get in the car and i just stare at her evily. She then tells me that he's gonna stop drinking. I say, "Whatever" She then offers to take me to go eat. I go eat and come home.

I go in the house and he lays there like nothing ever happened. My mom informs me that rick and him made up. I then go call Michelle. We also talk like nothing ever happened. Though it was on my mind, I didn't bring it up. It'd only cause a big fight. At this point, I thought about my choice to just ignore it. I concluded that only because she was far away that i'd let it slid. This is the only time probaly. I doubt I'll be comfortable with her till I can actually see her behavior in person and see for myself.

Wednesday: I wake up and go to class. I eventually get out my first class and go to student center. Donald, Brian, Jaime, Terry and Jesse is there. They all say they are sorry to hear about my grandma. *I was tempted to say your not sorry, you didn't even know her* I held back and talked like nothing happened. I got a few am I oks. I always say yeah. *ain't like they can fix it, they just being nosey* I later get pulled outside by Jesse. She wanted to know what was really going on. I told her I was ok and not to worry. I then told her, "It isn't like you Really care" SHe then tosses the cigarette she was smoking and says, "what did you say" I told her, "You heard me, You don't really care, if you really cared, you would've known how i've felt already. You would've called or something" she then says, "I don't have your phone number" I was like if you really were concerned you would've found a way to get it. We then change subjects and she says that she talked to Ayumi online. Ayumi said that she thinks me and Jesse look good as a couple. I then tell her Ayumi is psycho and whatever she says is stupid. Jesse then says, "besides, we're too alike to be together" I say, "besides, I'm not your type, You like rocker looking guys" She says, "a little but then you can't be seen in public with them" We then go are ways to are next class.

After the classes, me, donald and Brian all meet near Brian's class. Brian was actually trying to avoid Jesse. Something about her gets on Brian's nerves. i was more indifferent to the idea. Actually, she is pretty spontanious so its kinda entertaining. Well anyways, that didn't last long as she found us. First Jesse and Brian start to like practice fighting moves on each other. Then Jesse gets annoyed and looks to me to join. After debating for a few secs, I decide to join in because its harmless fun. So that went on till brian went to his like 3rd class. Me, Jesse and Donald walk off. Jesse then asks Donald to let me walk her to the bus stop. He does.

I walk her there and she wants me to take her to work. Thing is I didn't want to. But I decided to wait with her for the bus. While waiting, she asked what is wrong. I say, "nothing. DId I act like something was wrong?" SHe then says,"Exactly, I know you because your like me, you got 2 faces" I look at her funny and she returns the look. So then I break down what is bothering me. SHe then is all feeling bad for me and stuff and then her bus comes. She looks at me and asks again if I want to get on the bus. I decline. SHe leaves.

I go back and I'm bored now. I go look for Donald. I can't find him for awhile. I eventually do find him outside the now reopened cafeteria. I tell him I'm hungry. We then go to McDOnald's. I indulge on the goodies there and walk back to the college and get to my bus stop.

I eventually make it to work and start again. Nothing special at all. Lame, boring sometimes frustrating day. Operator is getting on my LAST nerve. She gets mad at me for asking her to page people. *HELLO, ITS HER JOB TO CONNECT AND PAGE PEOPLE* Anyways, after agonizing through such a boring day, I get out.

I get a ride and I arrive home. HEre at home, my nephew is here. *ANthony, 9 years old* I like that, atleast some family is here. Though thanksgiving time reminds me of my grandma, she loved thanksgiving. *Wow, getting sad here, time to change subject* WEll, here I am, waiting for tomorrow. Should be ok. My mom got a "pity" turkey and some "pity" pie. *why do i say that?* Her boss felt sorry for my mom because she told him about Lorenzo wanting his money back. He asked if there were money problems. My mom said yeah. He being the nice guy mom said he was, gave us a turkey and pie. Its nice of him, though I feel lowly for that. I actually view it as slightly pathetic and embarassing. Ain't like we're flat broke. Then again, with my mom just being a temp janitor and me working minimum wage, I guess we ain't rolling with dough either. Still, I'm sure there are more deserving people out there. I dunno. I think I just hate getting help. I HATE IT! I hate asking for it. Getting it. Needing it. *shutter* Maybe I'm just young but I have some dignity. In any event i am grateful, just I hate going throught that. Actually, was my mom, that ain't so bad. Now if I would've had to actually recieve to free stuff...... I wouldn't have liked it. Gawd, I hate borrowing money, much less getting something for nothing. ANYWAYS...

I'm tired so ending the entry. Thank you shadowrose and Diane for comments. THe rest of you......... That is all, END