Well, first off would like to thank buggie for the chat we had. She gave me some good advice. Was telling me about not worrying about things I can't change. Also, told me not to stress so much and to keep my mind busy. *would probaly slow down tumor growth* Anyways, during that chat, told Ray *former best friend* about tumor. Exact name and side effects. I was kinda opening up. I remember why I don't though in real life. He probaly would treat me too different and couldn't handle an emotional me.

So I sleep wake up to find my SF 49ers were losing. *they won though after, yeah* I go on computer to play video games and stuff when Alberto comes. *I was like, OH NO* He was all dressed up ready to go. I told him to hold on, get dressed really fast go to bible study. While there, was long. *both people who spoke were not that good* Though I was happy that when I arrived, Rebecca came over to talk to me. :) ALso, during sermon, I noticed her looking at me. And that is big because I was sitting behind and to the left of her. She had to turn her head to look at me. And, when I returned the look, her head snapped back. Anyways, after sermon I just sat there. Had Crawdag come and talk to me about "the law" *only made me more confused, though I clearly seen his point* After guy named Bill came and talked to me. This guy was like hey, I know your concerened about the commandments. * I was thinking here he goes gonna show me his biased opinion* To my shock, he was like, "Look, main thing is you find what you believe God is telling ya. He is the one with the knowledge. I know its tempting to hear others opinions, but what do they know? GOd knows all. ASK HIM, he will tell ya" Told me other cool stuff too. We prayed over it. After that, I had headache. Tryed to get find medicine, didn't have it.

Which nearly leads me to now. On car ride home I was trying to figure out if tumor headache or just regular. ALberto noticed I was thinking hard, asked me about it, I told him. *thought I told him, guess not* I played it down. I always do. Come home and help lil sis with homework. *glad she needed help I was gonna go moop in my room* She is getting older. I can tell cause our conversations are more grown up. Is good and bad. Found out she is jealous of lil bro's dad coming over and hanging with her. I was like, "DOn't feel that way" I love you. I hug her. She looked a lil sad. I asked if there was anything she wanted that I could get her. She told me she wanted this toy. I will get that for her. *think I better hang with her more often* I need to nip this sadness of hers in the butt before she don't want to talk about it.

NOw here I am, I'm ok. I am more concered for lil sis than myself right now. I need to put me on back burner. Already ate so will be here just um online, or maybe watch BIG Lakers game. *a lil mad didn't get invited to watch game with some church guys, heard they all were gonna meet at pizza place watch game* I was gonna say something, but nah, I don't invite myself places. I'm either wanted or not. Ok, enough resentment, I'm off. :)