I am mad at so many levels right now. It all started earlier today. Michelle was running a lil late and I asked my mom if she could give us a ride to downtown. *about a mile away* She said she didn't want to because "she was resting". However, she had been awake since 6 and it was 7:45. Normally, she would've had to give my lil brother and sis a ride at 7 if they weren't on spring break. Their schools are almost a mile away. So we argue especially because I know that if my big brother *who spent a night w/o notice* needed a ride to work that she would've. I bring up that she'd have to take my lil bro and sis to school and she says its because they're younger. However, my lil sister is just a lil over 2 years away from 18. My mom isn't going to stop giving her rides anywhere. She knew this and agreed to give me a ride but I refused. I'd rather walk.

So here I am finally at the college and I got a crapload of work to do. I got a stupid 8 minute informative speech to give. I got to study for a test and do some psych homework. So I'm a lil steamed right now. That'll go away though. I'll realize that I'm powerless to change the way things are and then get depressed. I'll then get some chocolate and breath really hard. If nothing else comes up, I'll then go back to my normal mood which is dissappointed. *thats how I work*

In other news, I watched the show called House. *a doctor show* Funny enough, the girl on there had almost the same thing as me. She had cushing disease which is caused by pituatary tumors like the one I got. They showed part of the procedure they used on me which I obviously found interesting. Then, found out Johnnie Cochran died of a brain tumor. I tried to look online to see what tumor it was but they don't say anywhere. Later, I ended up finding some interesting research on the procedure they used to operate me last time. Its not as deadly as I thought. There was only around a 5% chance of death. However, there is a lot of documented complications, including loss of vision. That'd probaly be the worst thing to me. I couldn't browse online or play games. If I become blind, they better put watch me because then I'd be very depressed. I mean, couldn't even chat. Anyways, other than that, not much else is going on. Oh, well, I guess its just going to be one of those lifetimes.