What a scary freakin night it was last night. Ok, so I'm in this dream right. I'm watching this kid which is me in both the first person and third person perspective. There is a guy behind me which I feel is my dad. BUT NOT MY REAL DAD. It's that person's dad. It was like I was playing someone else. Anyways, he says, "I am going to find out more about your childhood" I think, how is that?. So then it seems he went into the back of my head. I then wake up. I can't move. I have a headache on both sides of my head and I can't breath either. I could only open my eyes. I try to call for Michelle but I couldn't say her name. So then I get really nervous. I start to pray. I say, "God, forgive me for all my sins and please give me one more chance. " All of a sudden, I can move and talk. I still got the headache, but it's different. It's like it was lingering. While I'm telling Michelle what happened, I start to feel cold and the top part of my stomach, on the right side of my ribs, started to hurt. Felt like something was going to burst. I kept holding on to it as I was talking to Michelle. Eventually I go back to sleep. I then start to have similar dreams, but not as scary. In the morning, I go back to regular dreaming.

What a crazy experience. I told my mom and she said I need to go to the hospital. I probaly would if not for college. She said my health was more important; though I didn't feel ill or anything in the morning. Also, I have no medical coverage to speak of. It'd cost alot of $$$, which I don't have. At the moment, I started the process of filing for disability. I dunno if I'll get it or not, but all I really want is the free medical coverage. Neurologists, endocrinologists and the like are not cheap. I've tried going to this free clinic awhile back, they can't do anything about it. They treat stuff like the flu and broken legs. They are in the process of qualifying me for "second level" coverage. That would let me go to a doctor that is experienced in what I have, though I'd strongly perfer to go back to my original endocrinologist and neurololgist. They know exactly what is wrong. Anyways, I'm rambling and I got to go. That is all. ~END~