Well, it's official. I no longer work at the DMV. My time there is up. While I'm glad in one sense *hate the same ol drag*, I slightly miss it. Though it's mostly the money. There are few there that I ever socialized with there. The only one I really socialized with is this woman named Marcene. She was really polite. SHe even gave me $2 for something to eat when I didn't bring money one time. As for the rest, they didn't even acknowledge that today was our last day. I don't blame them though. Isn't like we were any kind of close. I don't think I allow that. I have to many defenses. *walls psychologists would say* Besides, most are just gossipers, just interested in spreading interesting information. *typical office environment in my opinion*

As for the rest of my life, things could be better. Me and Michelle's relationship, it has been a bit rocky. Minor spats. Stuff that if I typed on here would sound stupid, which they are. Though it's the only relationship that is doing better than OK. Family and friends have gone down in priority to me. I just don't have the time nor the patience anymore. I'm tired of trying to be nice and the one taking chances. Besides, with most my friends, I'm so vastly disappointed with thier behavior that if they were to die, I could honestly say it wouldn't faze me much. I'd be like, Oh, such and such died, how tragic, I knew him/her. Hope he/she goes to heaven. *though honestly, maybe I don't hope that for some people* .......My mean-spirtness decided to type there. COuld be what holds me back sometimes. It's like I want to see some people go through difficulties. It's like it assures me that my life isn't that bad. SO wrong. I know. I have alot more of those things that I generally repress because if I let it out, I'd totally be a jerk and "mean E" to be around.

Spiritually, that actually got slightly better. After doing some praying in my bed, I actually felt the little christian fire flicker ever so slightly. It doesn't last into my general life though. I know why. I keep trying to use christianity as a means to gain friends and talk about my own personal philosophies on why there is or isn't a GOD. I tend to forget that its all about a relationship with GOD. These people are trying to do good in that relationship by fellowshipping. That is what I have to do. New priority with God. Use some of them comments and take them to heart. Alot more I could write about, but i'm tired and have 2 papers due in 2 days. ~END~