I'm talking about the relationship between me and Michelle. It seems that the stresses of my house are taking a serious toll on her. She loves me and doesn't have a big problem with me, its with my family. To her, she sees the way my family mistreats me and acts irrational. *irrational is too light of a word to describe them* Not to mention the way our life is. We go on the bus to get places and our bedroom is so close to the living room that nothing between me and Michelle is private. Our lock to the room is a lamp. The neighborhood is dangerous, especially at night, when we have to walk through it.

As for our problems, I'd say the biggest thing between us is that I'm not motivated enough and I see her as too anxious. *classic type A vs type B conflict* Also, I think the fact that she has her parents to fall back on allows her to be able to be choosey. Not just that but she has been wanting me to carry more than 50% of the burden. She doesn't care if that isn't fair because at home, her parents did everything and if she went back,they'd still do everything.

Just today she was packing her stuff. I almost let her go. Even though letting her go would send me into a bad depression. Its like, I can't force her to stay. Sometimes I feel her obligation to finish the semester keeps her here. What's worse is that she don't have any friends to lean on and since my yahoo taz_want_food has been hacked, I lost most of my list of online buddies. GTG