What an ugly day today. Its rainy and gloomy. Very unusual for summer time in California. Usually its in the low 90's right now. Instead, its about 70 degrees. Not bad, but makes it sorta muggy. I don't have a stupid umbrella. So that sucks.

Been reading advice columns. I love them. They dispense good advice most of the time. Even after taking Psychology for 3 years now, I still can't give awesome advice. I can see and be aware of certain issues with a person, but I can't seem to be able to fix them yet. Shit, can't even fix myself right now. Then again, why do we always think we need fixing? I guess because a lot of people like me just don't like the way life is right now. Plus, you don't want to turn into those airheaded happy people. You ever meet them? Sometimes they just make you want to gag. I don't know why I'd want them to experience some of the negativity I go through. Maybe I'm more sadistic than I like to admit. I like to help too though so that makes it contradictory. I guess I like happy people, just not TOO happy. I have to struggle to make ends meet and have to do things that aren't fun to please society. Otherwise, they don't give me money. I think its that I kinda like it when people "warm up to you". You know, standoffish at first and then when they like you they're nice. Kinda makes you feel good about yourself.

Yesterday my boss Tim asked me about my tumor. I sometimes don't know how to react to those kinds of questions. Its a deep issue for me and I know I have to play it down or I'll get all down and stuff. As of right now, the doctors and I are confused about what is REALLY going on. Blood levels say one thing, the imagining says another. I feel ok. So I think I'm ok. I dunno.

My lil sister is sick right now. We think its food poisioning. I told my mom to check expiration dates, especially when going to the "Grocery Outlet". Cheap products near or at expired dates. I always worry when shopping there. Plus, in regular stores, you still got to watch out. I can't tell you how many times me and Michelle got a product and it was either expired or damaged. So watch out.

Well time has gone on fast and now its time for my Social Problems class. I am actually excited going there. I could talk about social problems till your ears fall off and your eyes sink. LOL. Yeah, I'm laughing at my own lame joke. I usually hate when people laugh at thier own jokes but look at me laughing at it. LOL. ROTFLMAO. HAHAHAHAHA HEHEHEHEHEH Ok, I've lost it. I'm cucu for cocca puffs.