He lives in Nevada and our California courts don't like to give sole custody out to parents in seperate states. Also seems that they look for the "child's best interest" Which would definately be here. If our family was normal, then his dad, Wilbur, couldn't take my lil bro away. However, my mom has some negatives going for her. She's been in a mental home before. She's an alcholic. She sleeps in the same room as my lil bro and sister. They don't have real beds. *neither do I* She doesn't make that much and she's lied about living conditions in the past.
So that looks gloomy. However, we have some things going for us too. My lil bro is comfortable and happy here. Wilbur hasn't been in his life for the last 12 years. Wilbur is abusive towards women and its in his record. He doesn't care for his other children either. He's had alchol and drug problems on record. Wilbur usually wouldn't have time to babysit my lil brother.
So there you have it. My mom is scared and offering to pay his child support. I told her to take him to court. She's scared and my big brother is scaring her too. So I don't know what will happen next. If somehow I did lose my lil brother, I'd be sad. I get along with him better than with my lil sister. He has a similar temperment and likes.
So now you want the good news you say. Ok, now you get the good news. Today was relatively unstressful. I hung out with Alex today. Ofcourse, as usual lately, he asked my advice on computer crap. Though later we went to the bank and he paid me money he owed me. We look around the mall and then go to the college. We take care of some business there. I have to go with Michelle to some birthday thing.
So I meet up with Michelle and we meet her co-worker Janice. She's very nice. She's also a psychology major. We talk about that. Was nice having someone who could discuss social and psychological issues without rolling thier eyes or being confused. She takes us to her college christian group first.
There we meet all kinds of people. Most of which were skinny college-aged white girls. VERY VERY VERY VERY friendly. The most friendly was this girl named Brandi. She liked to dish out hugs. She's the kind of people that it would be hard not to be friendly with. We ended up in a group with her later. The sermon was about building community and getting rid of the "fig leaves" from which we hide ourselves in. We then formed small groups. Our group had me, Michelle, Janice and Brandi. From there, we discussed "vaguely" what our fig leaves were. I'm not sure what I made up. I know my real fig leaf is my self-assuredness. I'm not very sure about myself. But from knowing me in real life, you couldn't tell that. So then like magic its over. Brandi has a birthday thing set up at TGI Fridays. *a restaurant*
We go there and like 25 people show up. The table is loud and there's lots of talking going on. I talked here and there but its hard trying to act comfortable around a group of strangers. Michelle was really quiet and only really talked to Brandi. I talked mainly to Michelle and Janice. I also talked with some guy named Seth. He looked like he didn't fit in. Most of the guys there were "typical" guys and were loud. He was generally quiet and had a poetry book with him. I wanted to see it but thought that might be too personal of a thing to ask of him. We ended talking by accident really. He heard me tell Michelle that I have "alot to write about today" and asked me what I meant. Not wanting to lie I just told him. Besides, I overheard him saying he had entries on myspace.com I didn't give him the web address though and we'll see how it goes if I give him this URL. I doubt it because I learned that whenever you tell too many about you diary, then you can't write as freely.
We get our meal and it was expensive. A slab of ribs for $16. Not a big slab either. It was alright but nothing we couldn't top here at home for a fourth of the price. I know it was no big deal for Janice, as she had bragged about her $50 shoes from Nordstroms. God knows I'd never shop as such an overpriced place. Though it wasn't the kind of bragging that was annoying. More informative than anything else. It ended with her giving me her free ice cream sundae. *she's lactose intolerant* I felt sad for her but happy for me. Shared some with Michelle. The day basically ends there.
Well, we shall see how this goes. I like the group so far. Though its hard for me to really talk in those kinds of social settings. I prefer the one-on-one thing. I feel I have to put my superficial face on when I'm in big groups. They meet on Tuesdays. I'm commited there for 4 weeks. *WHY?* Part of the group thing and "building community" in the church. I hope to get back to God and maybe this is what I need. I'm still iffy on christians sometimes though. However, no other group seems to be much better off. And I believe Most of what they say. Atleast the very basics. You know, Jesus died for me. God wants the best for us and wants us to love one another. The rest I still debate at times. The next meeting could be on Saturday though, when they go to the lake. Could be cool but I don't want it to be a burdon on Janice to take us places. You know how people usually are, they're nice to you at first, and then become bitter. I used to expect different from Christians, but they're just people too. Well, I want to write me but not sure what to write. I'll just talk off for the moment. Thanks for your time
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