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HELP!
Sat Feb 28 2004

Yetzirah, will you please haul your bod over here and slap me upside the head? I need an infusion of something, or a diffusion of laziness. I'm so tired of the slob I've become.

I see this mess and think, I gotta get to it. Then, Ah, I can't handle this today. But I wonder how many more tomorrows there are?

One of these days, everything is going to tumble down on me and bury me.

Maybe unplugging this here contraption would help. I'd rather be here than dusting, or straightening, or putting things away. I'm a computer junkie. And withdrawal just ain't happenin'!

OK, so I've been sick for a month. But this has been going on for years. Well, at least for the last five. My excuse? I hate this apartment. No excuse.

Help?

5 Comments
  • From:
    Sezrah (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Feb 28 2004
    oh dear :-/
    i too should be doing the dusting, vacuuming and cleaning but hey, i've done half of it and have about 6 hours to do the other half so there's my excuse ;)

    sez
  • From:
    MagicWhiskey (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Feb 28 2004
    Dusting, computer... dusting, computer. I choose computer. That's why I'm no help.
  • From:
    AussieDeafMan (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Feb 28 2004
    Let's form CJA - Computer Junkies Anonymous (this is a seminal moment in world history).
    We will be the founding members and have online meetings.
    Huh? Hang on there just one little minute, mate!
    Isn't that like AA meeting at the nearest bar??
    OMG - how do we meet to talk about this serious affliction?
    I am inspired.
    I may have caught a bad case of 'Sal's disease' so I'll go write about this.
    _|m/ ADM
  • From:
    Becoming (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Feb 28 2004
    Nooooo don't unplug this computer! I'd miss you too much.

    What about the apartment do you hate? Inside or out? Can you make it more cheerful? I know you are on a budget but maybe just a change in decor and some cheerful colors, a throw over a favorite chair? Could you get a different apartment in a different location? What is keeping you there?

    I find when I am feeling as you do that is a direct result of feeling as though I have no choices. Something I tell myself every day is that we are the product of the choices we make every day so make good choices. I don't always do this! I've been in a rut for a good five years myself! I am beginning to take back control over my life though and even though I can't act on things that I know I want and would make me happier as fast as I'd like I do have my 'hope' back for a better future.

    When you have been under the weather as you have been, it seems to put an exclamation point on all these feelings. Froggy was saying something that really hit home with me - her desires to do things are getting greater as her body is showing signs of slowing down . . . hardly fair!

    I don't think a word of this is at all helpful. I think you need a change of scenery and a little vacation, which I believe you are planning in the near future. It could be just the ticket!
  • From:
    Thubten (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Feb 29 2004
    I've been too tired and sick to turn the internet on for a few days. I was glad to find everyone still here :)
    I know what you mean about the mess, threatening to fall on top of you. And it's double hard when you're stuck indoors a lot, and more so for you with noisy neighbours. I've been lucky to have two little puppies to amuse me with their antics - takes my mind off things like untidy house and not being able to do much.
    love from jenny