Pragmatist
Pragmatist

Same old same old
Thu Jan 22 2009

Nothing new. Healing slowly. Not much energy. Wake up in the morning and feel really good. Mid-afternoon I'm starting the fade-out. I can do one away-from-home errand a day. If I try two, I suffer for it. That, too, will go away.

Have an appointment with a surgeon about the healing of the stoma, and we'll talk about putting me back to normal bodily functions. The bag isn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it isn't anything I want tend to the rest of my life.

 Got a notice that my rent is going up. Pretty soon I won't be able stay here (the cheapest in the neighborhood), or I'll get a roommate. I don't know if I could stand having a roommate. I treasure my alone time. Maybe I could find another hermit, and we'd not bother each other.

It's been drizzly here. Supposed to go another five days. I might get a little damp going to shul on Saturday. Going to shul on this coming Saturday is my goal for the week. I haven't been since the first part of November.

I've been discharged from Home Services. I 'm really going to miss the nurse and the physical therapist. I suggested that we might be able to get together for lunch every once in a while. They both would be very good friends, and fun.

Incidentally, the physical therapist is also the PT for another member of my congregation. He was there for his own errand, and we three met when I was finding out if I'm strong enough to walk the distance.  It was a pleasant encounter.

I really have to be faithful with the exercises. I'm a mass of flab. At least the long skirt and the long sleeves hide the worst. But it still not healthy. The exercises are very easy, so why don't I do them? I can do the leg exercises while I'm watching TV. I guess I get so engrossed I forget everything.

I gotta fix something to eat. My tummy is whining.


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9 Comments
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    You are such an example to me... I mean so positive. I sit here and I just updated at how down I am..how achy I am, how pathetic I am, and now I read you and feel just ... worthless . Worthless, that I can't seem to pick myself up and get that attitude you have.. Gosh you are a wonder!!!
    MUCH LOVE..

    I don't see why you are discharged from homehealth care before you are even healed!!! this makes me a bit angry..
    Perhaps you can get a live-in AIDE????
    Is that something you could work with??
    Rent goes up as people are loosing jobs.. Yeah.. What a mess we are in!!!
    And tax due right around the corner.. YIKES!!
  • From:
    404Error (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    Hey, Dreamerbooks had a really good idea! What if you found a CNA or nursing student to rent your second bedroom, but instead of charging him or her half the rent and utilities, you charge half the utilites, but only a quarter of the rent and he or she makes up the difference by providing personal care? That way you'd be paying less for housing than you are now AND have assistance with your personal needs. That sounds pretty good to me.
  • From:
    Mamallama (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    Ditto the first two comments.
    Wishing you continued healing.
    Hugs, Tiggs
  • From:
    DancingButterfly (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    Here's hoping you get to shul this Saturday. Blessings.
  • From:
    Camomille (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    That's awful about the rent. That was the biggest thing I found being on my own . . . so hard to find a place I could afford on one income. Like you, I'd be happy on my own if I could have just done it. Maybe an apartment that's part of a home, or a studio might work.

    You know at least you can get out once a day. That's progress. You are in some ways going through the same set of emotional issues I am although for much different reasons. It's tough to feel confined and not able to do the things you would like to when you would like to. At least you do feel yourself improving and that's a very good thing! You are a strong woman.

    Are there apartments that are available based on income in your area?

    :-)
  • From:
    Mamallama (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    That's wonderful that you can do those things for yourself now.
    You could do the same deal with someone to do the housekeeping.
    Barter for what you need. :o)
    Hugs, Tiggs
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 23 2009
    Do you really think I am depressed?? and what can a doctor do for me??
    I have been through worse times than these.. I really don't know if it is depression.. I feel like I've withdrawn from life..
    It has been a gradual thing.. where now most my friends don't even bother asking me out for lunch, or coffee, or pie.. b-coz I always have an excuse..
    In my past, I have lost homes, husbands, my foster son.. (kody's dad) and countless others.. This is not the most depressing time I've had to live through. Honestly.. I have lost entire homes in my past... And jobs and I don't know... my kids dad.. lots of worse times..

    I know I am very worried about my parents. Mom continues to have her troubles and just can't do much of anything. Her quality of life sucks.. Dad has come down with Shingles.. which scares me but doesn't surprise me.. he is under more stress than even I know....
    but.. yeah.. I value your opinion.. I just wonder why depression would strike me now and like this...
  • From:
    Welshamethyst (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Jan 26 2009
    Thank you very much for the recipe! Can't wait to try it ;)

    Hugs
  • From:
    Camomille (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Jan 28 2009
    I just let the list kind of free flow and that's what came out. I didn't think it out too much. It was a good exercise for thought. Anyway, life is good! But it's fun to get a glimpse inside a person once in awhile to get to know them a little better as well as yourself.