i was 34 when i began writing on here as franny with a little f.
for the first time - i am feeling old. i am fatigued - mentally and physically. i don’t think i will ever go back to being a vet tech - long hours and physically/emotionally difficult - i wouldn’t be able to do it. i think that chapter in my life is over even though i renewed my license 2.5 years ago and it expires in 2026- it was expensive and requires continuing education credits….
i’m becoming a bird watcher. it reminds me that nature does what it will regardless of how humans are hell bent on fucking things up. even the weeds fight cement sidewalks and sometimes win.
everyday i wake up and plead for help from the universe, from god, from the air, from the ceiling from anything that may be out there that will set the ball rolling to undo what feels like living in the upside down.
everyday i wake up and wonder where to put this profound feeling of despair - i pack it away so that i can get through the work day. it feels unreal, crazy, it’s like standing on the titanic and knowing it will sink but taking the time to brush your teeth…
i am surrounded by a community who is busy getting high. and i have to wonder if i should just fall in line...
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the genocide continues of the Palestinian people, and onward goes the unbelievable amount of energy hiding this assholes name from a list of pedophiles - can’t believe the dept of justice redacted his name from the file. and so the march goes on, the fighting of gerrymandering in texas, the locking up of brown/black skinned people, the absurd marching of wannabe nazis in their khakis and girlfriendless lives, holding tikis as if to say pick me, pick me… these dumbasses don’t have the cajones to march in bedstuy, bushwick or marblehill, harlem…they’d get their asses handed to them…as well as those tiki torches. and now begins the questioning of women seeking healthcare and being asked if their body can have children, if their body has anything effecting it’s ability to have children….all i can think of is gilead and the handmaid’s tale. will the choking of the 19th amendment be next…will we watch that die? will we be locked out of the workplace? what will happen to women too old to have children? usa birthrate is at an all time low - in history… is it any wonder….
when will the other half of the sky rise up?
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so. i’m getting rid of gmail. signed up with protonmail. i’m on tiktok but it will change in sept so i’ve got substack and bluesky. got rid of fb and instagram. canceled my amazon prime and what little online shopping i do, is directly from the product website. spotify and youtube are requiring subscribers to submit IDs - i don’t use spotify because that a-hole rogen is on there - he still owes sandy hook parents millions.
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they will come eventually for the information keepers/distributers - libraries already had federal funding cuts, how the fuck these asshholes can take my tax dollars and keep it from funding libraries, etc…. pisses me off.
there is the people’s sick day coming. we need to stay sick for a fucken year or so.
they came for the brown/black and now they’ll be coming for the women. open your eyes.
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