i've been thinking about Dad. all the care packages i've ever gotten from my parents were packed and shipped by dad. he could pack ANYTHING and make sure it arrived in one piece...
i still have a few boxes of empty care packages they've sent in the past, just like i keep all the letters and cards they've sent. i can't bring myself to throw them out...
i get a little sad thinking i'm never going to get another care package my Dad has so wonderfully packed and shipped...
called Mom last night. she's doing alright, but i could tell when she starts to get teary-eyed. she says she needs to be alone eventually so that she can get used to the quiet. (all of my bros and sis have been staying over, dropping by, bringing dinner, doing grocery shopping, i had to sneak paying her phone bill, but boy was she upset with me for doing that..but in short, she hasn't really spent more than a few hours alone in the house)

spoke to my sis in law who lives next door with my bro and their 2 boys. we compared notes on felicity, roswell, and buffy...and then she told me that buffy gave her a bad nightmare. she got up in the wee hours and thought about my dad...she went back to sleep and dreamed that she saw my dad as clear as day, looking healthy, with his hair white and shiny...my brothers were getting in his car with him. my sis in law thought, "hey, what are you guys doing??, he's passed away..." and then she said, my dad gave her that smirky kind of smile...(one of a kind and makes me a little teary-eyed just remembering it) and then she thinks to herself, "okay, what the heck, i'm going too" and she gets in the car..

nice dream.

anyhow, i get a call from the front desk that i have a package. it's in a priority box. i don't recognize the return address.... when i open it, i find
1. 1 package of spinach garlic breadsticks with sesame seeds
2. 1 package of stella d'oro annisette toast (i love these!)
3. a box of Carr's whole wheat crackers
4. a box of girl scout cookies (aloha chips w/macadamia nuts)
5. 1 bottle of vegetarian multiple vitamins.

so, i'm teary-eyed and eating girl scout cookies. i look like rocky raccoon...or tammyfaye...

i love my family. they are the best and i am so glad to have them in my life.
thanks D.