been reading emails that i have exchanged with a friend i never would have thought would become a friend. i've kept all of them and re-read them whenever i need a reality check. and the honest to god's truth is that i've romaticized someone that was just plain poison to me. i'm glad i kept those emails. i'm glad i have proof that it's not all in my head, that there really was mostly negativity in the entire affair. it kind of feels good not to feel like i have to worry or care anymore. she has no idea how much she's helped me, how much she still does every time i read her descriptions, her experience.
i have to wonder though, how much crap comes out of his mouth to any woman that will listen. all the lies. even when i blew holes in them, denial is a crappy state of mind to live in...but deny them, he did.
God, what a fool i was.
thanks A, we seem to be the only ones to know something of the truth because we shared and compared notes. i pity the next one...