i don't think it's a secret that for the past 2 weeks, i've been having an extremely stressful time at work. so much so that i am seeking professional help. my first session was yesterday. finally, years of dealing with underhandedness on the big boss' part, as well as, my supervisor and some co-workers...the crap has hit the fan. this time, i made sure all kinds of folk knew what was being said and done with regards to me and my work habits.
suffice it to say that, finally, someone listened this time because:
1. the schedule is being changed
2. people are being held accountable that weren't before
not sure what exactly happened, but from what my gut says, HR let management know they were skating on legally thin ice.
*that i was asked where my lastname originated...well...you can finish this thought yourselves dear intelligent readers.
understand. the big boss here NEVER caves. not for anyone. so, someone important must have said something important for she and my supervisor to change.
little did i know that listening first thing in the morning (before beginning work)to Dashboard Confessional's Spiderman song, "Vindicated" would have special meaning today for me.
1. You can't lie to an employee and have absolutely no proof. because me being me, i will go to your office with pen and paper in hand and ask what i did wrong specifically so that i can fix it...(this, under the direction of HR)
2. You can't lie to HR with regards to another employee's work hours in order to screw another employee...
3. You can't accuse and then proceed to create situations to prove the accusations...people will see through that. especially when i perform calm, cool, and collected in these situations...
it sucks. it all sucks that i have to be tutored on office politics. i am a straight forward type of worker. i go in, do what i'm supposed to, but most importantly, i care. what some of these folk have taught me is that it doesn't pay to care or take pride in your work.
the word Integrity is still taped to the front of the computer monitor in my office at work. i've been wanting to add the words: there is none here...but, i choose not to, because it's a negative sentence to read every day... it will stay as is, because through all of this, i managed to keep my Integrity. and while that doesn't get slaps on the back from the big boss for work well done, or it doesn't earn me the popularity with other co-workers or patrons, it ultimately lets me sleep well at night and shows the absolute respect i have for the strong work ethic that my parents instilled in me.