today, i was told my little f most likely has lymphoma. and how do you pick the day that a life will end? call the vet’s office, make an appt, answer yes when they ask if you want the ashes.

monday.

but now until then, i’m falling to pieces. again. like the last four.

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yesterday, i found out that the 6 month chest ct with contrast showed worrisome areas had gotten smaller.

so, another re-check in 6 months.

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i’m mentally and emotionally tired.