am i dating myself or what?!
last night, unfortunately, the screening room that is my brain decided to show a double feature...2 freakin' nightmares...after the first one, i awoke at about 1am. i looked around in the dark. went back to sleep. then came the second one, totally different from the first. i awoke at 4am. wondered what the hell?...and then went back to sleep. i might add that i had a nightmare the night before too.
the monster known as Failure starred in all three.
i'm only human. i'm not so arrogant to deny that i've failed at many things. i have: relationships, reaching certain goals, sticking to promises...(mostly to myself).
pay your dues and debts, pay your respects, everybody tells you you pay for what you getdmb
there's a running theme here though. when i'm busy minding my own business, not pursuing or desiring anyone or anything...when i'm taking care of myself, eating right, finding joy in listening to the radio while laying on the couch watching the sun set, when the cats are well fed...when i'm busy being myself...that's when people want to cling to me. that's when they notice me. that's when they want, would like, believe, desire.
i should remember to keep moving straight ahead. if they can keep up and not become an obstacle, they can stay. life is short. i don't need more rocks in my shoes. i've got a long way to run...