franny
bananafish

when the world...
Fri Oct 19 2001

is running down, you make the best of what's still around...la policia

will i break down? and purchase cable with a new tv? can not find upn, buffy is gone, gone, gone...the 2 rabbit ears can't find that vampire slayer, though, i know she's in there somewhere. i don't have a roll of aluminum foil and metal hangers are too stubborn to bend.

i've gone far with only 4 channels, even though i watch little tv. american beauty sits in its case (all 3+ hours of it), reminding me of how a dance teacher always used to say...choreographers never know when to cut movement out, there's only so much that a pirouette can tell, move on girly, move on...

things to do this weekend:
-begin take home test for surgery/radiology
-purchase toner for the printer
-rewrite medicine notes
-look up more on hip dysplasia in cats
-get my chf essay written and read javma article
-clean cat boxes
-clean cats (brush, clip nails, attempt to brush teeth)
-laundry (i should invite average joe over)
-vacuum
-mop kit, hardwood floor, bathroom
-work sat morning--go to gym work myself out

all the while, wondering if any of this even matters, if it will matter in the future, if i'll ever even get to practice what i'm studying, wondering how my buddy in cali is doing, a friend in japan, sweet bird in texas, activist friend in georgia...

all the while, wondering how obnoxious my worries are since i have food in the fridge, roof over my head, clothes on my back, the love of my family and friends, the luxury to pursue an education, the luck to still have a job...

when i was little girl and went to church, i used to pray for inner peace because i knew outer peace was unreachable without it...

potential energy eventually becomes kinetic.


4 Comments
  • From:
    Salamander (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Oct 19 2001
    Wondering if any of this matters? Of course it matters. Every last millisecond. If the world ends tomorrow, yesterday still matters.

    If I end my life with all my dreams realized, all my jobs done, all my books read, all my plans achieved, and the apartment cleaned one last time, I will have lived too long.
  • From:
    Moonman (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Oct 19 2001
    In a strange way (vanity aside), it does matter. All of it. Nothing (and then again, everything) is trivial.

    We all complain. Human nature has made us somewhat selfish and difficult to appease. i have two cars, a house, a family, computer, and much else...still, i want more. i hate that. i really do. When i read your entries though, it all comes into focus, and i can put it into perspective.

  • From:
    DaffyDuck (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Oct 19 2001
    V V
  • From:
    Sezrah (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Oct 20 2001
    sounds like a busy weekend, franny
    wise thoughts on peace there, at least inner peace is within grasp
    be safe
    *hugs*

    sez