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franny
bananafish

moment all over
Sat Sep 22 2001

and even curled up on the couch to see stark faces and nervous words
i feel alone today.
called mom and sister-in-law, ate a grilled cheese.
3 hour nap, only to wake up to more tears, tears, tears...
the cats are sleeping while i'm slowly crying
is this what life is?
what's happened here...

will i have time to pack the basic necessities?
have i said i love you to all the faces that have shaped me?

in dark blue up there tonight i see tiny stories shining down
and they're telling me...

take hold of your moments, your life is real...
i may sit in this tiny apartment
but the neighbor's flicker sits here with me.

5 Comments
  • From:
    Lilith (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Sep 22 2001
    Oh sweet chewy, don't go thru this alone. There is a whole system of us just hanging by a thread wondering what will become of us and our loved ones and ''them''too.
  • From:
    Slipperman (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Sep 22 2001
    amen
  • From:
    Salamander (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Sep 22 2001
    The neighbor's flicker. You use symbolism well. Didn't you realize that your neighbor's flicker was the flicker of lights in the windows across this nation, the flicker of computer screens across the world? You are lonely, but don't mistake that for being alone. That doesn't lessen the black moods, I know. But it should help you find the path out from them.

    On a more personal level ... *I* care.
  • From:
    Sezrah (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Sep 23 2001
    peace, friend
  • From:
    Moonman (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Sep 23 2001
    My dear sweet Franny...i wish i could comfort you. i wish you nothing but peace. Take care dear.