I know where you are coming from. I felt the same way about turning 50. So I decided to get a tattoo, but like you, I was chicken. It took me 2 years to decide what to get and where. Finally, one day on vacation I found out my totem is a crow, and there was a little picture so that's what I got. My daughter just made the appointment and took me, otherwise I would still be thinking about it. LOL. I'm glad I did it though.