-drawing the line
-walking away
-moving on
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it never seems like much until you actually sit down and think about it...
i'm getting good at drawing boundaries. i guess when folks think they can do and/or say whatever they want despite my feelings etc...well, i've had enough and so now, i just do what's best for me.
i guess i have to clarify something i wrote a short while ago...
just because i remember stuff, doesn't mean i regret that stuff is over.
i have no fondness for the pain/anguish/hurt that some folk have inflicted upon me.
i remember stuff, but that sure doesn't mean i want to go back. i was wrong to write that i never get over any of them...i have moved on and waiting for apologies, i know, is futile. so, i say, "fuck 'em" and move on.
i'm proud that i never let myself stoop as low. i can sleep at night. perhaps it's their regret that keeps them coming back...a problem that doesn't belong to me.
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anyhow.
i'm tired.
what else is new?
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have begun reviewing physiology. i'm surprised at how much i remember.
soon i'll move to hematology and blood parasites. then, radiology....then..cardiology... okay, now i'm scaring myself. too much to remember...too much to know. i need to get my hands on that internal med book.
hopefully it'll come before thursday.
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november is almost gone. a tough month emotionally. and i'm glad that strings are cutting themselves from me. i don't desire to be with anyone. i'm busy doing what i need to do for myself. other people only get in the way.
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U2 rocked SNL. i've always been partial to The Edge...something about those dark Irish...kills me everytime.
unos, dos, tres, catorce! translation: 1, 2, 3, 14...Bono gets to take liberty with whatever the hell he wants to...