i watched 2012 (another end of world story) and Legion (end of humanity story about God losing hope for mankind and deciding to wipe us out).
no wonder i'm feeling a little blue. that coupled with the crappy rainy weather we've had for the past few days and the real life family/pet issues makes for one really bad mix. i'm almost done with the book... perhaps i'll look for more hopeful material to dive into.
it is sunny out today. a nice change. feels cool though.
i should be running. i should have gone to the gym. but i just stay in bed...reading. sleeping. thinking. i'm burned out. emotionally and a little physically. but it's more my head than my body. i just don't want to_____ you can fill in the blank.
it's a good thing i work tonight because i can't find a good reason to get out of bed. yes. i know it sounds like i'm depressed. not sure if i am. perhaps it's the only way i can deal with things right now....
it's not really any consolation since i'll be dealing with death and dying at work as well. i just hope that it doesn't involve patients i've been taking care of the past 2 weeks.
okay. time to stop listening to radiohead for a while....
ah. the Sundays are nice and mellow and Harriet Wheeler's voice is angelic. :-)
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have begun some plans for next year. that's hopeful.
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life just goes on. despite. because. and i'm still here. and i guess that's okay. i know i'm lucky. i know. i know.
ciao!