trying to keep positive:
-going through classifieds daily
-submitting resumes and following up with calls
-making myself get on the rowing machine when i get home after work...minimum is 15 minutes.
-and just spending a few minutes here and there doing deep breathing when i feel myself getting upset.
-trying to eat better but not beating myself up when i cave
-praying more often than not for clarity and inner peace... and for a job.
-and i make sure to get more than usual quality cat time. i need them more than they need me...they calm me and make me smile.
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not sure what's going on with the dept. head at this point, but i suspect she's doing her best to help me out. past experience confirms this. i have to keep focused and keep studying (going through dosage calculations and i am not a math person). i have to keep my head straight if i want to get to the big exam prepared. going into depression and all the dark that it entails will only take valuable time i have to study and prepare.
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i'm grateful to have deardiary to vent and pour my despair out onto. i'm even more grateful that you all are out there lending me your support. kind words and concern from you helped. they helped ALOT! they always help. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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hope you all are okay. i'm doing okay today...and that's good enough for now.
-going through classifieds daily
-submitting resumes and following up with calls
-making myself get on the rowing machine when i get home after work...minimum is 15 minutes.
-and just spending a few minutes here and there doing deep breathing when i feel myself getting upset.
-trying to eat better but not beating myself up when i cave
-praying more often than not for clarity and inner peace... and for a job.
-and i make sure to get more than usual quality cat time. i need them more than they need me...they calm me and make me smile.
~~~
not sure what's going on with the dept. head at this point, but i suspect she's doing her best to help me out. past experience confirms this. i have to keep focused and keep studying (going through dosage calculations and i am not a math person). i have to keep my head straight if i want to get to the big exam prepared. going into depression and all the dark that it entails will only take valuable time i have to study and prepare.
~~~
i'm grateful to have deardiary to vent and pour my despair out onto. i'm even more grateful that you all are out there lending me your support. kind words and concern from you helped. they helped ALOT! they always help. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
~~~
hope you all are okay. i'm doing okay today...and that's good enough for now.