i give it away to God, to the powers that be. i guess deep down, i am a Christian and that part of me knows when to step in.
had 3 dreams, 2 were awful, 1 was so amazing, i can't believe i had it in my head.
first one is a recurring theme in my life. i am battling the devil, lucifer, whatever you want to call him/it... both my parents were present. he tried to attack Mom and i stepped in. instead of being just an evil presence, he was big, horned and complete with goat cloven hooves. we were fighting mano a mano.
i'm beginning to think i'm either really close to being hell material or heaven material that he's got to continue in his quest for my soul.
second dream, i and my boyfriend (noone i know in real life) were raped by two men. i knew they would kill us after. i closed my eyes and that's when i woke up.
third dream, was part spiritual, part sci-fi, part sitcom. i was in a large city apartment. there were other people around and a party going on. there was a spaceship sort of thing involved and the secret to how mankind came to be...there was space travel and tablets containing information about everything you could think of...very freakin' weird. can't remember much more about it except that i woke up feeling kind of calm.
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i'm feeling alright. stuff happens. stuff works itself out. i just need to have some faith that i will end up where i belong. i have to try to stay positive. it's easy to get lost in the darkness.
i'll be sending the fee to take the "big test" and i'll continue to study.
come what may.