franny
bananafish

recon
Thu May 09 2002

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself

radiohead.


today is grey and rainy and it suits me just fine. i'm living under the covers these days, breaking away only to walk home and breathe in some fresh air and that's debatable isn't it. fade out.

i've been unsleeping every night. dreaming of the past men in my life, seeing them walk in and out the door. never a fiasco. i was always left intact, intact, not tacked up, i was never a deer head mounted on the wall.

here's the dot, dot, dot

2:30, 2:30. almost ready for the power walk home. tired of fumbling through lists of medical words, but i can spell ophthalmology and roentgenology, they roll off my tongue now, when not much else does anymore.

i want to walk on a different level somewhere the drivel is not.
i need a deep cleansing.
i need to detox.

and quietly pick up my arms and my legs...

4 Comments
  • From:
    Salamander (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu May 09 2002
    Ack! The dreams! The closest I ever came to drug abuse was in vet school ... I used to take a Seldane tablet before bedtime even though my allergies weren't giving me problems because I'd sleep without dreams under the influence of one.

    Of course, eventually they started having the opposite effect, and started leaving me isomniac instead. That's the way my luck tends to run.

    And now I hardly ever have dreams I remember. I think I'm grateful for that, but every once in a while I read a Slipperdream and consider what I'm missing.
  • From:
    Franny (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu May 09 2002
    yeah, slipperman has some doozies!!!
  • From:
    Slipperman (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu May 09 2002
    i can't remember them lately, but they're still insane. been taking sleep aides. i know sister sprout and i went someplace sunny last night and i tried to stop her from trying a cigarette.
  • From:
    Damselita (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri May 10 2002
    I still wuv you;) lots....