sometimes, i am amazed that i'm here, living in brooklyn, again. working in the city. it wasn't planned. actually, after living in PA, i wasn't sure where i'd end up, just didn't want to end up there. and that was all that was planned, not being in PA.
it's a tough crowd here though. and, the city can eat you whole and spit you out, then step over you and move on. sometimes, the coldness, the indifference gets to me. mostly because i know that deep down, it's just a mask... protection
still, i have to wonder where is the human behind the coldness, the selfishness, where is the love?
you're never alone in your aloneness, plenty of company here. in that respect, i feel comfortable. it's not so strange to be alone, not to have any children or not be married. be in a city if you're alone...be in the city if you're alone...be in nyc if you're alone. because then, it's survivable. it's doable. it's alright.
11:47pm, time to try to get some sleep...another workday is looming.