franny
bananafish

listen...
Sat Aug 08 2009

most current iPod additions:

Cómo Fué... Beny Moré
Four Winds... Bright Eyes
La Dicha Mía... Celia Cruz, Johnny Pacheco & Pete "Conde" Rodríguez
Fix You... Coldplay
The Baby Screams... The Cure
Fast As You Can... Fiona Apple
Bamboleo... Gipsy Kings
Drifting, Falling... The Ocean Blue
King of Pain... The Police
Asking Me Lies... The Replacements
Chocolate... Snow Patrol
Fragile... Sting
Wild Horses... The Sundays
Ran Kan Kan... Tito Puente
Ran Kan Kan... Tito Puente, Jr.
Ride... The Vines
Espresso Love... Dire Straits
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had a bad day friday. broke down and cried, drank half a bottle of wine and fell asleep. orangehead lost more weight...awaiting bloodwork results from yesterday's trip to the doc. both kitkats had an appt. the doc wants me to give her sub-q fluids for 3 days... she didn't take it too well, it was tough. i guess we'll see what happens.

i can't deal with another death. i just can't... i see too much at work. people crumpled to nothing. even co-workers...just too fucken hard sometimes to watch. hence the purchasing of music...it's the only thing that helps. that. and wine.

i feel fucked up. is it the impending entrance of age 44 looming around the corner? is it the simple fact despite all of the sad stories, the heartache, the real tragedies happening every second, there is never a shortage of assholes ready to step over you when you fall? is it that finally the big bad city is winning the fight against my sanity?

i need more music.

1 Comment
  • From:
    Salamander (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Aug 31 2009
    I'll keep my fingers crossed on orangehead. Warrior Princess officially turned a minimum of 18 this summer. She lives her life mostly in one room now (The Prof's computer room) and seems to like it that way. Her failing is in fits and starts, with long periods of plateau in between. Each time it starts again I think, "This is it." Not yet, maybe not soon, but the fog isn't the only thing that comes in on pussy cat feet I guess.