franny
bananafish

moonman left a good comment...how will this effect the individual.

for me, i realized how fragile a being i really am. and how i take for granted sometimes that i'll wake up, go about my business, and return to a warm bed at the end of the day. the hint of pessimism in me got a swift kick when i learned the men voted to overpower the hijackers and take over the plane, make them miss their intended target, it left me in awe... i was shown how quickly i could panic, lose my head a little in fear that the crashes were only the tip of what was to come, i got really scared when i was given the news at school, my brain said "GO HOME NOW"...i realized how much i really really love my family and wished i'd have been there for mom as she cried over the phone. i felt regret at not taking the chance to see that beautiful skyline before it changed forever, i had that chance this past weekend and passed it up, stayed home instead. i realize how angry i get when i see people laughing and going about their business, how students rush to check emails or joke with eachother, i felt as if the dead were being disrespected...but now i realize that radio stations will play songs, the tv would show commercials, the newspapers would run ads in the personals...and this is how life is, it doesn't stop...maybe i anger quickly because that's how it'll be when i go. life will keep on without me...i felt the hate swell in me when i saw celebration at our tragedy and it made me ashamed. but it's slowly turning into sadness, we're just people too, like everyone else...i've been told i have a hardness to me, i'm tough on the people in my life...maybe that's what protects me from falling apart.