interesting.
i know that there are many "natural" supplements you can take along with eating well and exercise. i'm opting for the eating well and exercise, it's the getting enough sleep that is proving to be difficult. i like working overnight hours because it gives me more days off (4) but i'm on for 3 days (each 12 hour shifts)...with approx. 5-6 hours sleep in between. while at work, i rarely sit down and if it's really busy, i eat while working. this week, i'll be putting in two 14 hour shifts and one 12 hour shift. i'll be getting even less sleep. one thing i do know for a fact: if i don't exercise, i get depressed. it's been at least 6 weeks since i hit the gym regularly. 2 of those weeks i was sick as a dog. it took another few weeks to just recover. a busy work place just makes me want to sleep on my days off...once you stop going to the gym, it is TOUGH, to go back.
maybe i should make myself a chart to keep track of how many times i go to the gym. this has always been encouraging to me...i can see my progress. it's what i did for when i trained for the marathon (seems so long ago) i miss my marathon body...
need to eat better. i just have lost the will to cook. i don't buy pre-packaged food (frozen dinners...anything you reconstitute with water etc.) so, if i cook, i'm steaming veggies, making pasta..(in short, i actually use my stove). must make myself. must try to eat better at work. must make a point of sitting down at work.
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orangehead...my orangehead...what can i say? she's 15 years old. is FIV+, has hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, is hyperthyroid and has bad teeth and ears. she tolerated the sub-q (subcutaneous) fluids a little better yesterday. so far, the stool softener seems to be working, she pooped friday and yesterday. urination and bowel movements...can't take these things for granted, because once they become a problem, they become seriously bad problems, especially with male cats and lack of urination. it can lead to death. her bloodwork came back normal. kidney and liver values are wnl (within normal limits) and the thyroid is now regulated (they increased her AM dose of the thyroid medication)...so i need to get some weight on her and/or keep her from losing weight. i see radiographs and/or an abdominal ultrasound in her future. once you bring them in for such things, it's all downhill. i know. i see it at work.
once you start looking for something, you almost certainly find it.
right now, she's sleeping in one of the dresser drawers. this kitty has been my best friend since 1995 when i acquired her as a kitten from an ex-boyfriend. turns out, she is the best thing he ever did for me. she's my bud. we sleep together, eat together, watch movies and listen to music together. she never leaves me alone when i'm sad and crying. she often makes me get my ass out of bed to feed her, clean the litter box etc etc. when all i want to do is hide from the world. she makes vacations interesting (she accompanied me to Sag Harbor last summer). i love this cat. my pumpkinhead. she is always herself and doesn't look to be anything else. a great lesson for anyone.
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off to shower and perhaps a nice long walk by the river. i'll take a book, something to nosh on, and plan on sleeping on one of the benches. forget about work shit, people shit, world shit.
i've got today...so far. will try to enjoy it.
ciao!