i couldn't leave the kitty laying there, because i'm walking to and from work as much as i can to save $$$ and it would really upset me to see it keep getting run over. so, i grabbed the extra plastic bag (i was walking home with groceries and thank god i didn't bring my canvas bag which i usually use to limit my use of plastic bags...) and gingerly picked it up. i didn't realize how bad a shape the cat was until i was crouched in the middle of the very busy Ave...i looked out for cars and gingerly picked the kitty up. i got blood on my hands and blood on both my sneakers. i carried the kitty to a little plot of grass (more leaves than grass) a little out of the way. i can't get the vision of her condition out of my head. i'm hoping and praying kitty is sitting on St. Francis' lap wearing her little halo. i'm sure kitty's got lots of company.
i got home, and hugged and kissed my cats. they got a few extra fork-fulls of soft food with their kibble.
i catch myself saying, "noone cares, noone cares". and for once, i told myself not to dwell on everyone else, because i don't know what other people are thinking...
so, i began to say to myself, "i care, i care" and i guess my behavior in such situations is all i have control over. i am past apologizing...i don't think it's a bad thing to care. people have heckled me or yelled dumb things at me while i pick up the poor souls from the middle of the street, i suspect it's because they are uncomfortable with caring.
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anyhow, forgive me for the graphic details. i just wrote it how it was. btw, noone heckled me this time, although there was a driver that made a point of showing his/her annoyance. when the rabbit got hit, someone drove by and laughed at me... the last laugh will be on him because eventually, he'll be lunch and dinner for all of the creepy crawlies when he's 6ft under....
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what a downer entry.
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i'm pms'ing and a little down. i'm not keen on the holidays. and i'm bumming because my foot is still hurting and keeping me from running. i've got a doc appt on thursday. i'm afraid he'll tell me to quit running. i guess i'll worry about that when thursday comes. i've submitted 2 applications for part time work. if/when i do get an offer, the paycheck will be strictly for purchasing a car and insurance. i'm counting on buying a used car, preferably an environmentally friendly car...so i'm shooting for a Honda or Toyota. that seems such a long way off, but really, my 4th driving lesson will be this week.
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okay, to end in a good/positive note...The Moscow Ballet's rendition of The Nutcracker was wonderful but the venue sucked...and it's obvious the folks at The Borgata have no clue what kind of space was required in order for the audience to view the stage comforatably for a dance performance, but all in all, it was very sweet (love the music and costumes) and i thoroughly enjoyed the performance. plus, we had Gelato afterwards...yum. and i got to spend some time with my sis and a friend.
take care, give all furry heads in the household a kissy-kissy.