franny
bananafish

the above entry was a pretty mean spirited one. i won't delete it, but i won't make it public either. it's been, i have to say, an awful week. and while i find that what some members of mankind do is unforgivable, i still have no excuse to take it out on someone else. in fact, it just puts me in that group of people i'm not too keen on.

(mind you, i, in no way, behave unprofessionally here at work...it's all smiles and can i help you? kind of attitude)

for the record: i didn't sleep with or have a one night stand with the person i mentioned in the first entry. i'm older, wiser, and am determined to stay healthy and sane. i feel badly how things kind of worked out but i've come to the conclusion that there is Always a good reason, even if i have no idea what it is...in the long run it usually ends up being a good thing.

i have to say, though, that someone came through for me this week, and who and how was completely unexpected. my respect has renewed for this person. but perhaps it's easier to just stay mad... my feelings are mixed. not much to do about that.

while i have become busy, my running has slacked off. and this is a bad thing. and today, i just am not feeling well. i have a sick sort of feeling in my mouth, like i'm coming down with something. i haven't been sleeping well. i was up at 2am and couldn't get back to sleep. won't even mention how poorly i'm eating.

i've got some serious things on my mind. plus, springtime, while it's gorgeous...is tough on a single person...you folks that have a significant other have someone to share the blooming of nature with. it gets lonely. i'm getting older. and find myself closing off, this is something i've got to work on.

so, this is the real fran talking/writing.

i am sane
single
relatively healthy
and sometimes feel too alone.

"join the crowd, fran, join the crowd..."