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a stressful workday so i hit the gym afterwards and pumped some iron and had a 30 min cardio workout on the eliptical trainer. i was so stressed that i was actually contemplating heading to the city to purchase some clove cigarettes...
i opted, instead, to go to the gym and just work it off. i think, as healthful as i try to be, i'm a perfect candidate for a heart attack.
changed into street clothes and walked home. the night was beautiful...it was one of those nightskies where you can see the clouds still slowly moving across. i don't mind the cold. i was proud that i beat the craving for a clove.
then i get home and find stuffed underneath my door an envelope from the landlady. my rent is going up. i will admit that that just tipped the scale for me...i cried like a baby. i'm now regretting going premium for this site. and it sure cured me of making any future purchases of cigarettes. something's gotta give.
i'm currently shopping for another job...at least part-time so that i can continue the driving lessons. i'm deflated and yet still determined. i'm pissed and just pig-headed enough to keep on moving...
i'm hoping the avalanche that Salamander said i'd be riding, doesn't toss me off too soon. work with me here, Mr. Avalanche.
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i need to get to sleep.
goodnight.