people go down in flames. they are anxious. worried. such a huge disappointment to be ordinary. to not be someone too special. to not have a "gift"...or talent. deflated and lost and sad....
way back when. when the road unfurled ahead of me... full of hope, possibility, new experiences, new everything... i always wondered where i'd be when i was older...
it's tough to consider that it was all really meaningless. life does what it wants to. i'm facing more changes and it's not because i'm looking for them...they are just coming on their own. because. i. don't. want. to feel. that i am nothing special. that my life has just barely been ordinary.