i stopped writing or checking my diary from work. my goal is to be out of there by august or the beginning of sept. it's a toxic environment and i just can't anymore. i will even take a pay cut just to get the hell away from these crazy-assed folk. i think these folk have forgotten that i have options now, i can drive, so no workplace is out of my reach...and i freakin' graduated and can sit for the certification exam, so workplaces will see that i am a serious candidate. i will never ever forget my boss asking (while i was still in school) if i liked what i was doing and if i thought that's what i'd want to do (for a living) DUH! $10,000 dollars worth of practicums says YES! i mean, is this woman profoundly foolish or what?! i give up, i surrender, the crazy folk win and can have that work area and run it like the bunch of loons they are. you win! you hear that? you win running the crazy place full of crazy!!! i'll be on my way to somewhere normal, where my brain won't gravitate to being mush and where people actually like what they do, loser that i am... ;-)
i haven't been running. just too damned hot and i can't seem to get out of bed early enough to get a run in in the morning. i'm sure this is having a negative affect on my emotional state.
i still need to have that freakin' drink...that school finishing drink. perhaps when i get a new job. that'll really be cause to get stinking drunk because:
1. i may not be able to afford a beer for a while
2. i'll have broken away from that leash to hell
it's currently 10:14PM and i'm wide awake, i'd napped for a good 4 hours. so, i'll look over some review questions (something i'm trying to get into the habit of doing every night), eat another oatmeal cookie, eventually take a shower and head to bed.
down to go up, down to go up, down to go up, down to go up, down to go up.
ciao&meow!