This is not one of those days.
I made a good, solid, correct decision. It was overridden because it was not convenient. It was overridden by someone who just hours previously had told me that he and his department didn't have the time to do such work and make such decisions. It was overridden because my decision was inconvenient and required a little extra work be done at the end of the day on a Friday. It was overridden right in front of me with absolutely no explanation given to me. It was overridden with contempt.
I make no difference. I garner no respect. The equations don't add; they subtract, leaving me with something less than zero.
The stone in my chest is hard, and cold enough to freeze tears before they form. And I wonder who I am, and what the hell I'm doing here.
Comments (6)
Alli
Sal, the thing is, you DO make a difference by making the hard decisions. You make a difference because someone, somewhere, knows that you made the right call and it will encourage them to do the same in the future.
Hugs
In my experience, many difficulties, stresses and challenges in the workplace are more than made up for if one precious thing remains: professional respect. Without that it's hard to keep making the effort.