Salamander
Fire Walking

To Slipperman:
Mon Apr 01 2002

Sal is on Sal's bad side, Slipperman. I've made a series of decisions since the end of September that have resulted in far more strife and bad feelings than I ever imagined they would. I'm too proud to say I'm sorry. Hell, I'm not sorry. I still feel I was in the right. But because I'm sticking to my guns, people I did not intend to get hurt are being hurt.

I'm swinging between anger and remorse, and I simply don't know what to do. I probably don't know what to do because I refuse to ask the right questions of myself. But I don't think I'm going to like the answers, so I continue to refrain from asking.

9 Comments
  • From:
    Moonman (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Apr 01 2002
    Ah...now it's all clear to me. Well, as clear as mud anyway.

    i hope you manage to work things out. Your a smart gal!
  • From:
    Slipperman (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Apr 01 2002
    do you know the questions, at least?
  • From:
    Lilith (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Apr 01 2002
    Today is a good day for answering questions. If you don't give the right answer you can always say you were fooling.
  • From:
    NooNoo (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    I don't know what's going on (wish I could be a fly in your brain :p), but you sound like you need a *HUG*.

    Love,
    cur
  • From:
    Coolkid (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    Sometimes we refrain from asking the right questions of ourself, cos the fear is deeper than not just "not liking" the answer. For me..its often the root, the core and thats scary.
    Dont know whats going on, but hang in there.
    ps...thanks for your comment.Wish I will have a fraction of your knowledge one day.You make sense!Thanks

    CK
  • From:
    Froggy (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    Thanks for nice comment on my diary this morning. I put the frog background on about a week or so ago....kinda cheerful, I think. Also, the frogs in the farm pond and along the little holler creek are really making the noise now.....no more wondering whether the spring frogs are out and about. Have a great day.

    froggy
  • From:
    Shay4l (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    Plagued by self-doubt? Good people question their own actions, bad people act with disregard for others. The danger lies in good people regretting facing up to bad people and therefore allowing the improper action of others to stand by apologizing wrongly or backing down.
  • From:
    MoonriddenGirl (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    I was going to make some wise comment about pride being like medicine--how hard it is sometimes to get down, but how much better it is for you inside than outside. But you know it doesn't work or make sense. It does suck having to swallow your pride. I hope you find a resolution that doesn't require you doing so. But remember if you decide that pride-swallowing is the route to feeling better, it only hurts for a little bit. And if you're very, very skillful, you get to nurture some additional pride for having done it well. {{u}}
  • From:
    Greensparkles (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 02 2002
    There's so much that we share
    That it's time we were aware.
    It's a small world after all.